I caught some sort of flu last week, and instead of getting all the symptoms at once like a normal human being, the silly things have been taking turns on picking away at me. Tonight the coughing and congestion have been challenging the contents of my stomach, so as I sit here typing in a daze I'm keeping a lovely trash can nearby, just in case.

Fun times, fun times.

Anyway, I've been meaning to write another entry for a while. Nothing like another bout of insomnia to get me in the mood, right?

Part of me hopes I didn't become too angry or upset over leaving JABcomix like I did a few months back, yet part of me feels entitled. A shitload of hurt and frustration had built up over time, so I'd like to think my reaction was understandable.

Was I being dramatic? Probably. But it didn't start with me. I wasn't the one who spread the lies, and I wasn't the one who thought they could get away with taking advantage of others.

Maybe all I needed after that was time to cool off. Or maybe I needed one last session to rant with, I don't know. All I can really say is that the drama is finally over now. I've had that time to cool off, reassess the situation, and a chance to have my final say in the forum over what happened. And now that I feel I've been heard, perhaps that's why I've been able to put all the BS I went through behind me. Which means I have no more reason to distance myself from the site I used to call home.

So I'm back at JAB's. Members have welcomed me back with open arms. And damn, does it feel good to be at peace with it all.

I've been kept relatively busy doing coloring for JKRcomix, and as I've been telling people it's been pretty damn good for me. I feel I've learned a lot in the past few months through my experiences with working on the comic pages and pin-ups. I've occasionally given myself breaks by reworking old pieces or finding something different to color, but my main priority is to get those pages done. This shift in focus might explain why my galleries have appeared so sparse lately.

But yeah, it feels good to actually be productive for a change. Not just getting paid for work, but to feel involved in projects much larger than what I'm used to dealing with. It's new and satisfying to feel that my opinions and judgments matter, to know that I'm depended on.

Anyway, I just wanted to pop on to say that life is too short to hold grudges and let things stew and fester. It's not always the easiest thing to do but I'm relieved I've finally been able to let it all go.

Heh, and maybe I can get some sleep now.