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Journal Entry: Thu Sep 6, 2012, 10:33 AM
Rey and I are all moved into our new place.  I can't tell you how happy I am here, even if we still have a lot of unpacking to do!  The amount of space is nice, and everything feels new and clean and fresh.  It's been great for the puppies too since they now get to spend more time outside.  You can see them here:

Sisters by enigmawing

Still, I'm exhausted.  The last few months have been a whirlwind.  Hell, this entire year . . .

Anyway, I hadn't drawn anything fun in forever but came up with an Ariel yesterday, hope you enjoy:

Legs are Required by enigmawing

And while I'm here, I'm still doing coloring work for JKRcomix.  If you're interested in NSFW stuff be sure to check out the site (google is your friend)!  And while you're at it, I occasionally collaborate with GiuliaSinope so check out his work too!  

And back to the grind I go . . .

I'm not bad, I just draw that way.

somewhere only we know

Journal Entry: Fri Jul 13, 2012, 9:57 PM
Hey everyone! :wave:

Yeah, I know it's been a while, but forgive me for not wanting to be social.  There's been a lot on my mind and I think I've just needed some time to myself. :( No need to explain why January was so rough, but at least I'm feeling better.  :nod:

My eyes have been bad for years but I recently went through a major scare when the doctor told me I might be going blind.  The specialists still don't know what's wrong with me but it looks like any real danger has been ruled out.  Because of some pre-existing conditions, my eyes are prone to certain issues so I have to be extra vigilant about any changes in my vision.  You can imagine why I've been trying to let them rest by spending less time on the computer.

I visited my aunt and grandma again, under better circumstances this time.  I always love making the out of state drive and spending some time with them. :)

Oh, we've adopted a puppy from the rescue named Sarabi.  She looks so much like the puppy we adopted last year, who isn't exactly a puppy anymore.  They grow up so fast!  I'm currently going through all the motions of potty-training and other fun, messy stuff with the little one.  ;p

I'm also the proud aunt of a brand-new little niece!  Did the whole baby shower thing, will probably be doing some babysitting, and yadda yadda.  Not much else to say besides the fact that she's beautiful. :)

Oh, and we're about to move to a nicer place!  More room for the puppies to play, more room for all our stuff, and more room for whatever the future may bring us.  But it also means I'm going to be busy busy busy for a while.  I haven't even begun to pack yet! :o

Anyway, I hope I didn't worry any of you.  I had time to draw and color a new piece this afternoon and thought I'd write a little catch-up journal to go along with it.

Thanks for all the well-wishes!

I'm not bad, I just draw that way.


Journal Entry: Thu Jan 19, 2012, 7:05 AM
I mentioned a few entries ago that I'd be staying with my aunt and grandma for the weekend. As usual, I enjoyed the drive to Cali on Saturday and had a great time seeing my family. We planned to stop and see some of Rey's family the next morning before heading back home, but I woke up in the early hours knowing that something was very wrong.  My aunt gave us directions to the nearest ER, and Rey tore down the empty streets of the city at twice the allowed speed limit in order to get me there.

The pain was becoming unbearable by the time we hit the parking lot, and as I made my way inside I felt something happen to my body, something that made me realize there was no hope for the baby. :(

Checking into the ER was a nightmare. The front nurse and receptionist were far too concerned with proper procedure to actually listen to me, and I most likely fell into shock as I waited for my turn to get admitted. Not that they could have done much of anything aside from easing my pain, in cases like this nature has to run its course. I fought off fear and extreme nausea once I made it to a bed, waiting for a doctor to show up and give the ok for Rey to join me. I tried not to notice the alarming amount of blood I was losing as they warned me that I might need a transfusion, and my head rocked back and forth in anguish as they held back on giving me pain meds since it was possible I needed to be prepped for surgery.

I'd never been in so much pain. At some point the morphine they injected wasn't enough, so they switched to something much stronger. After several doses I was warned it was enough to potentially shut down my respiratory system, but luckily the pain started to subside soon after. They kept me in the hospital for a few days since there was still a chance I needed surgery, but my body seemed to be taking care of itself properly so they let me go with the information that none of this was my fault. It's common for the first pregnancy to end like this, and it's likely that my next one will be fine. I'm not sure how much that helps me emotionally right now, but at least I'm ok. I'm staying at my grandma's house for the remainder of the week. I'm being well taken care of here, right down to being given home made chicken noodle soup and cookies. I'm looking forward to going back home though where I can return to the comfort of my own bed and contact with the outside world (no internet here so I'm pains-takingly typing this through my phone).

Sigh . . . I've been told I didn't deserve to go through this, but really, no one does. It's just an unfortunate part of life. I'll always be left wondering what would have been if this little one could have made it . . . and I just cannot put it into words. :(

Anyway, I wanted to thank everyone for their kind words between this and losing Koji; while it's been an extremely difficult time, I do know I still have a lot to be thankful for.

I'm not bad, I just draw that way.


Journal Entry: Sun Jan 15, 2012, 8:03 PM
Lost the baby today. :(

I'm not bad, I just draw that way.

Going to Grandma's

Journal Entry: Sat Jan 14, 2012, 12:08 AM
Heading off for the weekend to visit some family in Cali.  I always look forward to the drive and I'm even armed with some new music . . . well, new to my playlist anyway.  ;p  The west coast was so far away when I was growing up and it's still kinda surreal that it's in easy driving distance now.

No real updates on the baby yet, but that should mean all is well so far.  :)  I imagine I'll be getting a lot of tummy pats when we hit Grandma's, lol.  The pregnancy is still draining all my energy but I can't complain too much, things should let up by the second trimester.

Thanks to everyone for all the condolences over Koji.  I hope to give some individual replies once I get back; as it is it's still kinda difficult to sort through my feelings.  It'll probably be good for me to get away for a few days.

Oh yeah, and many thanks to EdGPatterson for giving me a premium sub! :wave:  I especially missed having my journal skin.  :D

I'm not bad, I just draw that way.
This year's been such an emotional roller coaster.

Can we start over?
Well, at least now I know why I've been such an emotional wreck in the past month, why everything smells so nauseating, and why I'm utterly exhausted.  Oh yeah, and why I've been throwing up . . . it seems I'm typing for two now.

I should have known.  ;p

This will be my first time as a mom so I'm pretty excited!  I'm also pretty nervous; even though I've worked with kids a good portion of my life (I'm babysitting as we speak) this will obviously be a whole new experience.

I really, really wanted to break the news here with a cute little drawing or something, but I've got a lot going on right now and simply don't have the energy.  Not sure of a due date yet but I figure somewhere around the end of July, and before anyone asks it'll be a while before we'll know if it's a boy or a girl.  ;)

Now if you'll excuse me, I'm craving some pickles and peanut butter . . .

When it Rains . . .

Journal Entry: Sat Oct 15, 2011, 1:58 AM
Things were going relatively well back in late August.  We made our plans for the trip to my hometown to see my family, thanks in part to the money I'd raised from the prints.  But due to the last-minute plans of adopting a new puppy from my brother, we realized we'd have to drive all that way instead of fly, but no big, my car is perfect for road trips.

Well, except that it broke down on us before we even had a chance to leave.

So we weren't just looking at some minor repairs, we're going to have to replace the entire engine.  So much for the trip to see my family, right?  While disappointed, I figured we'd use our saved money to repair the thing and save up again to make the trip early next year instead.

Then I received word that my cousin had terminal cancer.

I had no idea that this wonderful, generous lady been sick at all, let alone that she had already been sitting in a nursing home for several weeks.  She was my mom's best friend growing up, and was even the reason my parents met.  We dropped everything so we could get a rental car for a long Labor Day weekend.  We drove straight through, something like 25 hours each way.

I saw what cancer did to both my parents back in the day and was afraid of what I might see, or even worse, that we might not make it in time.  Thankfully she was fully coherent when we arrived, and we had a few nice visits sharing photos and talking about old times.  Seeing so much life drained out of her was utterly heartbreaking though, and saying goodbye on our last visit was probably the most difficult thing I've ever done.  She passed away a few days after we had to leave.

But I'm thankful I at least had the chance to say that goodbye, as I never got the chance with either of my parents.  And I'm also thankful that I got to work out some issues with my brother as well as see my nieces and nephews, and that they all finally got to meet my husband.  I wish there had been time to visit with some old friends or for it to even feel even remotely like the vacation I'd hoped for, but that's ok.  There will be other trips.

Once we made it back here there was really no time to relax.  I had a new puppy to potty train, and had to be a live-in babysitter at another house for a few weeks.  I'm back at home for now, but am packing up to babysit yet again for the next few weeks, just like I'll be doing every month for the rest of the year.

The hard part is being away from home for so long.  Then again when I am home I go completely stir-crazy, as we haven't been able to repair my car just yet.   Needless to say I haven't had the time nor energy to do much drawing as of late.  

But I can't complain.  We'll probably be able to fix my car at the end of the month or so.  The new puppy, while still a handful, is a little cutie.  And my first anniversary with Rey is coming up.  Considering everything, I think we're doing alright.

I just wish it would stop pouring.

I'm not bad, I just draw that way.


Journal Entry: Sun Aug 28, 2011, 4:32 PM
Thank you so much to those of you that bought prints!  We will be shipping them out on the 30th.  For those of you that ordered additional prints, they've already been sent and will arrive separately.  :)  My trip is going ahead as planned this coming week and you all were an enormous help!  While the "Enigmawing Trio" limited edition prints are no longer available, at any time you can contact us at to inquire about anything from my dA gallery that may also be available as hand-signed prints (options may vary depending on the individual piece).  We do plan on offering additional limited edition prints in the future so be sure to keep your eyes on this journal for updates. :D

Take care everyone, and wish me luck on the trip. :)

I'm not bad, I just draw that way.

Final Days!

Journal Entry: Mon Aug 22, 2011, 12:55 AM
Just a few days left for your chance to own some exclusive, hand-signed prints!

Enigmawing Trio

Certain other images from my dA gallery may also be purchased as signed prints; those interested can email my agent/husband at to inquire about the potential availability and price of any specific piece.

And great big thanks to all of those that have already made a purchase!  You've played a big part with making my upcoming trip back home possible.  :)

I'm not bad, I just draw that way.

Prints Update

Journal Entry: Wed Aug 3, 2011, 11:16 PM
In addition to the exclusive, limited-time prints I'm offering in my previous journal entry, Flying Home . . .

Enigmawing Trio

. . . hand-signed, high quality prints of some of my existing deviations may be available by request in a similar fashion.  Unfortunately, not all deviations can be offered, so please ask about the availability and prices of any specific piece.  All inquiries should be sent to this email:

Thank you for looking!  :)

I'm not bad, I just draw that way.

Flying Home

Journal Entry: Fri Jul 22, 2011, 10:42 PM
Four years have passed since I decided to pack up and move out west, and I'm long overdue for a visit back home; I haven't even been able to introduce my new husband to much of my family.  In an attempt to raise a little extra money for the much-needed trip, I've decided to release an exclusive set of hand-signed prints, available only for a limited time.

Enigmawing Trio

Full details are available at; I hope you'll take a look. :)

I'm not bad, I just draw that way.

Honeymoon's Over

Journal Entry: Tue Jan 11, 2011, 11:30 AM
Thank you for all the congratulations on my previous entry!  Aside from some catering issues that would have thrown most bridezillas into chaotic frenzy, the wedding went well.  Rey's mom made my wedding dress out of a design I came up with; she also made all the flowers and favors by hand (and I about killed myself sewing on the teeny little beads onto the favors).  We did some fun stuff in California for the honeymoon, including a visit to Disneyland on Halloween!

Anyway, you would not believe how crazy the past few months have been for me.  Aside the wedding and the holidays, I've had a lot going on in my personal life that's kept me from being as active as I used to be online.  I'm afraid I haven't had much energy or interest to throw myself into even my own drawings as of late, so it will be a while before I can resume commissions.

In the meantime, hope you at least enjoy my latest Ariel and anything else I can manage to post.

Pink Dress by enigmawing

Take care everyone!

I'm not bad, I just draw that way.
  • Drinking: green tea


Journal Entry: Thu Oct 28, 2010, 11:58 PM
Sorry I'm so behind on notes and such, but I've been insanely, incredibly busy in the past month or two.  Rey and I are getting married on Saturday (that's practically tomorrow!) and something tells me I don't quite have everything ready.  I'm hoping to resume commission work sometime after the honeymoon, so thank you for your patience!  Please keep an eye on this journal for further details and updates.

I'm not bad, I just draw that way.


Journal Entry: Thu Aug 12, 2010, 11:45 PM
In the next week I'll be looking over commission requests, which may be sent to my agent/fiancé at for review, as he will be brokering the transactions.  Please use this address only, any other emails or notes will not be answered.  Also please keep in mind that this email address is for commission discussions only.

Pieces for this round will be $75 each.  One character of your choice (please be prepared to provide references if necessary), fully colored/shaded, simple background.  Size will be 2550 x 3300 pixels unless otherwise requested, and the full-resolution version will be emailed upon the completion of payment.  I reserve the right to display finished lower-resolution pieces in my gallery as further examples of my work.  Please be familiar with existing examples of my work for an idea of what to expect for your piece:

Fairy of the Forest by enigmawing

Mature Content

Long Hair is Long by enigmawing
The Mermaid and the Frog by enigmawing

something new by enigmawing Honey by enigmawing Tiana by enigmawing

Princess of the Moon by enigmawing Anastasia by enigmawing arabian princess by enigmawing

A limited number of slots will be available.  Payments may be made by Paypal only; half up front, half upon completion.  Details on where to make the payments will be sent to those accepted.  I will maintain correspondence as I work through your sketch and colors to make sure you're getting what you want, turnaround time will be discussed privately with those interested.  Thank you for looking!  :)

I'm not bad, I just draw that way.
  • Eating: Neapolitan Ice Cream

'You can think I'm wrong . . .

Journal Entry: Wed Jul 21, 2010, 1:59 PM
. . . but that's no reason to quit thinking." ~ Dr. Gregory House, MD

* * *

I've received many notes, replies, and emails in the past week or so.  You probably know why.  I'd say that 95% of the communication was supportive, which has made all my time and effort in searching for and exposing the truth about a certain individual to be well worth it.  Many have thanked me for being an outspoken voice when they felt their own would have been lost in the sea of literally hundreds of blind followers.

To those of you that have paid her up front for commissions and are still waiting for a resolution, I hope you either get the artwork you wanted or a refund in due time.  I also advise that you file a complaint against her at this site (as well as any other site you've been in contact with her) if she has still not gotten back to you on the issue, including paypal screencaps of the transactions as proof.  Even though the work was not sponsored directly by dA, they should be responsible to uphold their core values with all members as well as follow up on any violations that have been made through their accounts.

For those of you who feel betrayed by her due to the lying and cover-ups of the fake persona she's been carefully constructing in the past half decade, I'm sorry.  You're not the only ones.  

And to those of you who are continuing to fight tooth and nail, claiming she did nothing wrong?  Well, I'm sorry that you're too blind to put two and two together, or if you hold any one person's artwork in a higher regard than his or her own integrity.  The only reason she's scrambling to get her past-due commission work done now is because she got caught.

I really wouldn't have cared that she lied about who she was, where she lived, what she looked like, etc. if it was for a matter of privacy (this is the internet after all).  But she did it to get attention, to cheat people out of money, to trick everyone into believing she's something she's not for personal gain.  She posted photos of a camwhore model and claimed they were self-portraits.  She's ignored and handed out excuses to her own paying customers for years at a time, screwing people out of thousands of dollars.  She tried to distract from her lies and gain sympathy by hacking her own dA account and playing the poor victim.  She deserves every bit of negative attention she's called to herself now that the truth has come out.

Apparently hearing the truth hurts her more than the random trolling, which is why I'm one of the people she's blocked from her page.… what did I say that was so awful that she felt the need to block me?   See for yourself:… ~comment from her deleted "apology" journal)… ~profile comment… ~profile comment… ~reply to profile comment

Once again, hearing the truth hurts more than the random trolling she's managed to ignore.  For the record, trolling and/or spamming her user page does not help the situation, nor do all the racist comments; they only gain her sympathy about supposedly being a victim throughout all this.  And while I've brought the subject up, do me a favor and leave all racist comments about her off my account as well; I'm about to marry a full-blooded Mexican.

And speaking of getting married, my big day with SatanasRey is in October so I've got a ton of planning ahead of me.  Although I've been happy to be a voice of reason throughout all this in order to help people, I can no longer dedicate much time and energy to exposing a phony that's already been clearly exposed.

I just hope it's been enough.

I'm not bad, I just draw that way.
  • Eating: Lean Cuisine Deluxe Cardboard Pizza
  • Drinking: Water

The Aftermath

Journal Entry: Sat Jul 10, 2010, 12:16 AM
Since JessicaElwood's last journal has long been deleted (I'm sure many of you know her account went bonkers today), I thought I would repost my comment to her here.

Jessica, I'm sorry you felt you had to lie, especially when it seemed there were already plenty of people who liked you for your art and personality.

I thought it was pretty obvious that the girl in the recent photos wasn't the same as the one you initially showed back in the day, but whatever. I understand the whole "online persona" thing to a certain extent and felt that it was really none of my business. But when Rey gave you a hard time about it, you immediately hid his comment and personally took him aside to lie even further? You kinda picked the wrong person to directly lie to about what happened over at JABcomix since he lives with one of the forum mods. You could have simply asked him to please drop it without the BS drama story and he would have.

Sorry, I know this is the internet and that lying is "expected," but I don't think that makes it right. I know we didn't talk much but I had considered you a friend . . . you know, the whole "we girls that like to draw girls have to stick together" thing. But this kind of thing not only makes your fans and even friends lose trust, but it makes artists like you and I look like a complete joke.

And after all this, I can't believe you're even continuing to lie within your apology here; your "friend" Camerella doesn't even know who you are . . .

* * *

A screencap of her original journal entry along with more information on what happened at dA can be found at Encyclopedia Dramatica (which I won't be linking here as it's NSFW).

I really don't know what else to say except that I'm so totally sick of dealing with phonies in the online world.

I'm not bad, I just draw that way.
  • Watching: Burn Notice
  • Drinking: Iced Tea

Forever E

Journal Entry: Fri May 28, 2010, 2:39 AM
  • Listening to: There's Always Someone Cooler Than You - Ben Folds
  • Reading: the label on my bottle
  • Eating: dark chocolate-covered almonds
  • Drinking: XXX Vitamin Water Zero
Woo-hoo, I got my journal skin back!  And no more noisy ads as well thanks to Timinithis and his generous donation.  :D  

Maybe I'll look into having Rey design me something new for my skin, maybe something more subtle.  Must . . . think . . . of bribe.  And boob-flashing won't work, he's already seen them way too many times.

*clears throat and adjusts collar*

I'm still trying to get used to the new dA, lol.  The "correspondence messages" thingy must be relatively new, yes?  Sorry if you sent me one and it expired before I had a chance to approve it, I really do think the group things are pretty cool.  And sorry if I've missed any notes entirely as I seem to have 34,178 messages backed up and waiting; even my closest friends thought I fell off the face of the earth.  :o  Sometimes I feel like just shutting down this account and everything associated with it so I could have the chance to start all over again.

Not that it would change anything.

Um, to be fair I'll have to admit I'm not the most organized person around.  I swear I mean well but I'm super awkward when it comes to being social, even when it comes to simple replies; I'd like to hope all is forgiven just because I like to post pretty boobs girls . . . although I'm sorta trying to do new things for the sake of not being bored.

There's been a lot to occupy my mind these past few months, lots of personal changes to adjust to and answers to look for from within.  So much crazy shit in fact that I couldn't help but curl up and away for a while.  So what else is new?  Yep, it sucks to be lied to and/or lied about when you've already got bigger things to worry about, but whatever.  There's only so much one can do, right?  ;p  So for the sake of not being a drama queen I'll just remain smug and let it go.  :)  

But there are good changes going on as well.  One of these days I might be switching my name from Miss E to Mrs. . . . uh . . . . Mrs. . . . hmm.  Well damn, what would I call myself?  Mrs. R?  Mrs. SR?  Or how about enigmarey?  Eh, whatever; I think I'll just stick with plain old E and be done with it.  Just don't ask us for the date as we haven't set one yet.  =p

For all you Daria fans out there that might be on the fence over picking up the complete box set, it's only $27.50 on Best Buy's website!  Although they are backordered, you can visit one of their actual stores and do a price match on it.  But hurry, apparently they don't have much stock; it only came out today and I picked up my store's last available copy.

Heh, and I thought Amazon's price was a good deal at $44.99 . . .

I know what I'll be watching all day.  ;p


Before anyone has a chance to ask if the original music is preserved, the answer would be no.  I haven't popped any discs in yet, but in the insert letter written by Glenn Eichler (the show creator), it says 99% of the music has been changed because it would have been impossible to release otherwise.  And to further quote Mr. Eichler . . .

To put it bluntly, replacing the music had to be done.  Does that mean this box set is compromised?  Season I Daria would have said, "Yes."  Season V Daria would have said, "Shut up and pass the remote."  Let the raging begin.
  • Drinking: iced tea
Today's my birthday.  

Thought I'd do a little art purge for the hell of it.  Or maybe I'm just being an attention whore.

Hope you like.

. . .

Heh, I feel dirty.  ;)
  • Drinking: iced tea